Not a great start

The logical, "me" mind showed up this morning - already. Doesn't help when you get an email that is titled "Money slipping away". I know Kath is all into this. She is the one that has wanted to honor God with our money. It was I that held back. So I know she did not send this to scare me or worry me. Nothing mean or bad about it; she just wanted to update me on the bank info. It's just my reaction to that which rules me (right now):

Tithe is 130.00
kids need 50.00 each for meals/snacks
Ceri wants a T-shirt $20.00
I don't know if Keagan will want one 20.00 if he does-
Ceri says you want one too-I think you don't.
Dr. Coker takes 300.00
Your ticket takes 140.00
Car insurance comes out on the 20th IDK how much.

First thought in my head is "We need that $130. With all those outgoing expenses, we need that money for something". Mental safety net. The kids are going to Blast/Fusion, so can't cut there. Coker is our chiropractor, so can't cut there. Ticket is something dumb I did a while back (get used to that phrase - I do a lot of dumb things) that needs to be resolved, so can't cut there. Car insurance is car insurance, so can't.... yeah, you got the drill. So guess what my human mind thinks? Who can get cut out? Worse part - after the NIU horror, I feel guilty about thinking of holding back.

After a few minutes, I thought more and knew that I get paid in a week, and I can just lay back a couple days on a couple other bills and then pay them from there. So my worry is gone and the fiveth is still on.

Simple explanation: all this comes from a lack of a budget. I had one, fluffed off and now we are off track again. With no kids this weekend, I must get back on it and do it right this time. And then - follow it!

(note to self: don't forget to budget beer)

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